Sin: Daughter of the Grim Reaper (Excerpt)

Sin: Daughter of the Grim Reaper (Excerpt)

Chapter 4

I awake to the familiar smells and sounds of sulfur erupting from the gaseous pits of home sweet home: Hell. I force my eyes to open and there standing beside me in dazzling white robing is the messenger angel Gabriel. Like the rest of his brethren he is surrounded by a blinding gold light, and he extends a glowing hand to help me to my feet. He lifts me with no effort on his part, and once I am steady on my feet, he gazes at me with hopeful eyes. I find his stare to be unnerving, his colorless eyes examining me with a quiet uncertainty.

“Your father has been removed from his duties,” he said sadly. I look at him, the memory of my father’s final words turning my stomach into a tangle of knots.

“Forever?” I ask hoping that there is still some time left for me to find the seal.

His gaze remains focused on mine. “No. Until the seal is found he will remain under heavy guard…but if the seal is not returned in time before it is broken, then…he will be held responsible.”

“Where is he being detained?” I at least needed to know that he was…ok. For all of the misery and extreme punishments he has subjected me to one would think that I would be kicking my heels with joy. And, to a certain extent a part of me did feel slightly vindicated that he may receive a taste of his own brutal medicine, but at the end of the day he was still my father…and he trusted me.

“I cannot reveal that information to you for reasons I am sure you would understand.”

“So why are you here?” Without thinking I summon my father’s Scythe into my possession. Gabriel looks at me alarmed by my sudden offensive act.

“I ask that you do not react in such haste; such actions could further instigate harsher consequences for both you and your father.”

“I have no intentions on threatening you Gabriel,” I say softly. “I just want to know why you are down in the more…baser levels.”

Gabriel studies me once more, his expression changing from alarmed to thoughtful. “You are more like your father than you know,” he says finally after a brief pause. “No one foresaw that he would transfer his powers unto you, a half mortal. But now that he has done it, there are a few things you should know.”

“I’m listening,” I say shifting my weight onto my right foot where I could lean onto the Scythe for support.

“You are to only claim the humans without the mark, and your powers are not meant for you to act on revenge. To do otherwise would result in a punishment worse than what your father may experience. You are the gatekeeper of the afterlife: humans that are allowed entrance into the Heavens will be escorted by one of my brothers. You are never to intervene. Humans that are not allowed entry will be escorted by you to the lower realms where…the fallen will claim ownership….”

He continues on in a speech about what I can and cannot do for what seems like an eternity. Most of the stuff I already knew courtesy of Grim, some of it would take a few practice lessons for me to get it. But what I do not think Gabriel understands is that my new promotion is temporary. I am finding that seal and proving my father’s innocence.

“And last but not least,” He says turning to leave from whatever path he took to get here. “I do not believe your father had something to do with the seal’s disappearance. I believe that my brothers are guided only by their reverence for human life that they see him for what he is not. Grim may be a lot of things that oppose what most of us are designed to do, but ambition is not his motivation. He is nothing like the unnamed one and it saddens me that he is being blamed for such an atrocity.”

“I will find that seal and the human responsible for it,” I declare, now more determined than ever.

“I know you will. That is why I came down to speak to you. But I must leave you be Sin of Sin. Send for me and I shall assist you in any manner that I can…” And with that, he disappeared into a ball of light and was gone.

So even the angels are divided, I think to myself still staring in the direction where the angel had stood. It was then that I realized my father had given me his powers to better aid me in my quest and not so much to prevent a cosmic meltdown. As the Angel of Death, I am now more connected to humanity than ever. I gaze down at my hands, stretching out my palms and I could sense the very vibrations of life right underneath my fingertips. In my mind’s eye I witness human after human whose lives were on the brink of coming to an end ranging from the last few moments of breath after months of battling a terminal illness; the moment their heads make impact through the windshield in a fatal collision; the brush of fear as the really unlucky humans fall victim to a murderous predator and their cries are blotted out by a gun, or a knife, or the overpowering grip of a pair of hands wrapped around their throats choking the life out of them.

So this is why dear old dad is always so damn cranky.

I extend my left arm, summoning the legendary Scythe into my grip. Thank goodness wearing that black hooded robe is not a requirement because I still remain in the leather outfit I purchased. I made a mental note to take Grim shopping as soon as this mess was resolved. He needed a different look, other than his current dreadful appearance. I take one last look at my surroundings. Hellfire, brimstone, lava pits, demons materializing from the physical world in search of a soul to torment; fallen angels lurking about, perhaps on their way to meet with their boss…speaking of boss, now that I am the Angel of Death where are my underlings? Father had a legion of soldiers at his beck and call and here I stand in the middle of Hell alone…. Shouldn’t there have been some sort of ceremony to recognize my promotion? Strange…very strange.

Father mentioned something about being some sort of conspiracy against him, and in Hell, there is always a conspiracy for a power grab. Coups are performed on an almost constant basis, alliances are always formed and agreements made. Everyone down here works for someone, with the exception of my father. He is a sort of free agent, and now that I think of it, that makes him more of a threat than anyone. Someone down here has conspired to remove Grim permanently from his position and used a human to see it through. The question is who? There are millions of demons and most of them work for the Beast. Furthermore, they do not act unless told and I doubt that the Beast has any real interest in destroying Grim considering the fact that he has a war to plan and Grim’s purpose is more beneficial to his cause than not. So that must mean it had to be one or some of Grim’s own soldiers who were responsible.

First things first: find the human. I could terrorize the entire realm and would still find myself unsuccessful. And then I have an idea. Using the Scythe, I send out a telepathic call to every last one of my father’s soldiers to my presence. Instinctively I knew that the one or ones responsible would not make an appearance. They would be somewhere in the earth realm hiding until the time came for the seal to be broken, when my father would meet his end. The caverns vibrated a deep rumbling, creating deep splinters in its wake. Sounds of souls being tormented escalated to a deafening level; cries begging for the Almighty to come and set them free of their eternal torture. Within seconds the first few hundred of my father’s soldiers, now fully under my command are standing in front of me. Some of them sported the black winged/dark angel appearance, while others resembled gargoyles with their clawed hands and feet, stony expressions and grey scaly skin and wings like that of a bat instead of a bird. In just a few minutes I had almost an entire legion standing before me, ready for my command.

All of them stared at me in surprise, and as I mentally counted present heads, I noticed that a good fifty or so were absent-and those that were absent had been my father’s best men. As a matter of fact, those that were missing had accompanied me on several recon missions…just as I thought. They stared at me with curiosity, desperate for answers. As I surveyed these entities, I sensed the vibration of jealousy coming from a few of them, and I knew that if I did not establish myself now as the Angel of Death, I would have to deal with a possible mutiny, and Grim was no longer available for me to run to for obedience issues. I take a deep cleansing breath before speaking.

“As you all may know, Grim has been temporarily removed from his position,” I begin slowly, making eye contact with every one of the warriors that stood in front of me. “For now I will resume as the Angel of Death, fulfilling my father’s duties which is why I felt the need to call this impromptu meeting.” I wait for a response, and when there is none I continue. “Someone or, someones have stolen the Seal of the Apocalypse and somehow my father is being held responsible. When I discover just who the culprits are,” I say, my eyes blazing with rage so dark my unnaturally emerald green eyes turned completely black. “…not only will I skin them alive personally, they will die a second death. Most of you know that I survived the Abaddon Pits, and inside those pits lay a creature that has yet to be unleased onto the earth for a reason. His name is the Devourer and not only does he eat your physical body…he eats your soul. And one more thing,” I add staring beyond the legions and into the deeper pits that made Hell what it was. “I know that this may come as a shock to a lot of you. Some of you even feel that I am not qualified to assume such a prestigious position considering that I am or was half mortal. And I know that some of you feel slighted by Grim after eons of unquestionable allegiance…yet here I stand being given all of the powers of darkness at my disposal… Here is what I present to you: either you stand with me as you had my father or you stand against me and betray my father. You could try to form an alliance with the Unnamed One, but we all know how that goes…betray my father and you die, plain and simple. Have I made myself clear?”

*******Coming Soon***

Viper Character Introductions: Damien

Vampire zombie

The next individual I call is someone I wouldn’t even fuck if I was blind. The decrepit motherfucker is some sick combination of everything that could go supernaturally wrong on top of being the result of a fucked up science experiment. Damien. He is a flesh eating vampire, the only one I have ever encountered and one I would have no trouble leaving in the sun to rot. I had heard of horror stories involving victims being allergic to vampire venom and instead of transitioning from human to vampire without losing much of our original physical appearances, these victims transition from human to Igor with fangs and a penchant for human flesh. Not only will they drain a victim dry but they will pick the bones clean of flesh. They are the absolute worse and a threat to vampire survivability and their makers have to control them, otherwise civilization will cease to exist. Damien is an expert at hiding in the shadows, which makes him very difficult to locate considering that his maker was killed ten years ago by another vampire. I am not sure over what, and Damien is not much of a talker so that will always be a mystery to me. He owes me in the sense that since his maker has died, I had made it a point to check on him from time to time to make sure that he is clean with his kills, and by clean I mean that that shit does not hit the news. He will be useful in the event of a confrontation with werewolves and tracking Lucas.

Indie Life and my Journey

I thought I should take a moment to reflect on my progress thus far as an independent author, and let me tell you it is not easy. Each day is filled with an internal conflict to keep pressing forward. It is a daily struggle to remain motivated and focused and that each day is one step closer to my goals. But it is…hard. Some days are better than others. I have days where I am filled with so much self doubt and procrastination that I type less than two pages and give it up for the day. Or two… Some days I feel like there is just not enough time in the day to finish what I am working on. I have the vision; I see where I want to go, but some days this engine of mine runs out of gas.

Will I ever quit?

No. Writing has always been a passion of mine and anyone that knows me can testify to that. Creativity flows through me like a  river to an open ocean and I know there is no way that I will ever quit doing what I love to do. But this journey of mine does get tiring. For those that do not understand what you do a great deal of time is spent trying to convince them to share your vision; and then more time is wasted trying to make those same people understand that the life of an author is a slow grind. Success is not overnight. A lot of work goes into self publishing starting with finishing the manuscript, and then it is on to revisions and editing, and formatting…designing the covers for the book…and then the business/marketing side of the deal.

But the biggest struggle that I have encountered in this journey is trying to forge relationships with other people who do what you do; who understand your pain and struggle: other authors. All of my networking with other authors is done on Facebook and other social media platforms. I try to offer my support by promoting their work on my website and blogs, tagging and liking and posting their work on pages and what I have come to conclude is that each author is their own island. As an author myself I have found it difficult finding that balance between helping someone else fulfill their dream and accomplishing my own. As much as I would like to I cannot read everyone’s manuscript, post a review on Amazon and then share their links on all of my social media accounts…only for the favor to never be returned.

Am I relying on other authors to help me get to where I want to be? Hell no. I do everything on my own and I am working hard to build my own audience and I know most of that comes from word of mouth, but there is something to be learned from authors who are more experienced and have an idea of where they are going. I just barely figured out my direction and I know that with consistency and great deal of hard work I will have my own audience begging me to hurry up and release a work of mine. But until then, I guess the life of an indie author is a solitary one-meaning, no more networking (or attempts to network) but focusing on building my own brand.

My stories are original 100% and the day my work is no longer authentic is the day I will quit writing. Yes I have favorite authors whose work I admire and inspired me to pick up the pen but never do I read someone else’s work and then try to duplicate that same story by changing the names and faces of the characters. I see a lot of that going on…but hey to each his own….

To those who stumble across this blog, understand that I am not complaining, just voicing my opinion and expressing my struggles as an indie author. Most of us are blessed with reaping very little benefit other than the personal satisfaction of bringing what we have in our hearts and minds to life and receiving a few good reviews. I love what I do and I guess that is all of the fuel that I need to keep going.

Muse

A Muse is like a jealous lover: all consuming, addicting, beautiful, and maddening all at the same time. They creep up on you like a thief in the night, drag you out of bed and demand that you give in to their call. And then, that moment when you are too occupied with your reality (career, kids, school, whatever) they leave you without question…they totally abandon you when you need them most leaving you alone with empty thoughts, desperate to continue with whatever your creative instinct challenged you to conceive. Sometimes, a Muse can be so cruel to leave you longing for their embrace for days like a man thirsting for just a sip of water in the desert. At that point you find yourself ready to give up and forget about the sweet seduction and the feeling of complete oneness that only your Muse can bring. You want to forget about the enchanted dance that binds creation to its creator as a single unit. So, come out Muse. Don’t leave me hanging tonight. Don’t let me forget….don’t let me forget….

Nubia Rising: The Awakening Synopsis

Synopsis

Nubia Rising begins with the introduction to the legend of the Destroyers. Many eons after the First War in Heaven when Lucifer and a third of the heavenly company were cast out from the presence of God, the Annunaki, or Fallen Ones (as known by the ancient Babylonians) came down from the Heavens, bringing down with them a power that was to remain only in the hands of the Almighty and violated the Heavenly Edict; an action that cost them severely. They built the city of Atlantis using this power, created immortals (gods) and taught humans wicked ways and as a result a great flood came and washed everything away, including that great city of Atlantis and they were banned from returning to the Heavens. Some were captured and imprisoned in the Euphrates Rivers as stated in the Christian Bible until further judgment. Others flocked to Lucifer for protection, leaving only six who opted to not side with Lucifer and become a part of the damned. Instead, they held out hope that they may be offered some sort of redemption and so they took refuge in the deep waters of the Atlantic where the last surviving pyramid of Atlantis remained.

The story’s heroine, Kitara, a head strong, independent young woman born between 1450 and 1500 B.C.; during a time when gods ruled the lands; and the human populations had to be careful in the choosing the god or gods that they worshipped. Since birth, Kitara’s long time ailing mother Aisha had known that her daughter was special, which is why she chose to live as a nomad to protect her daughter from being recognized for who she was meant to be. However, it was not long after Kitara received bits and pieces to answers that she was looking for, when the Egyptian goddess Isis confronted Aisha regarding Kitara’s insolence; and rather than heal the woman, whom had been nothing short of a loyal worshipper, Isis killed both Aisha and Kitara’s 12 year old brother. Angry, confused and heartbroken, Kitara vowed to come for Isis and every Egyptian god thereafter, and it was soon after, that someone else had been watching and more than ready to provide her the opportunity to have her revenge.

The storyline transitions from present day to past memories that Kitara reflects on as she struggles with the losses of everyone she had ever loved. Her most stable companion is her sword, and is frequently referred to as the Sword of Oblivion. Oblivion is actually an angel; the first and only female angel ever created and the Light’s secret weapon against the darkness. Oblivion is the only one who can permanently obliterate an immortal or a god; and she was given to Kitara because Kitara’s abilities renders her the most powerful of the Destroyers. Between the two of them, they are a lethal force to be reckoned with.

Next, there is Jose: a young, ordinary man with a not so ordinary life. His mother had committed suicide when he was just 13 years old and prior to that, she been battling severe mental illness after his birth. His father and the rest of the family had done nothing but sweep it under the rug, leaving him to come to terms with her loss on his own. Not long after her death, he began to experience some of what his mother had gone through with severe bouts of depression and even hallucinations. He had been given prescriptions for the depression and had at one point in his life been referred to a therapist which proved to be less than helpful. So now at the tender age of twenty he felt like his life was meaningless. He was fired from his job, his girlfriend broke up with him and there was an incessant female voice in his head seducing him to end his life at the Golden Gate Bridge. Fed up with everything he makes the drive, only for his attempt to be thwarted by none of Kitara who had sensed the presence of the goddess of suicide Ixtab and proceeded to terminate the ancient Mayan deity. After a brief introduction and an even quicker goodbye, Kitara heads off in an unknown direction, leaving Jose alone with his thoughts.

The other Destroyers are quickly introduced. There is the hothead Naomi, the Vampire Hunter who is now technically out of work because vampires have now become extinct. Sage, the Witch hunter, a vibrant woman of Celtic origins and born during the time of Merlin. Syrene: the Demon Hunter and the one Destroyer whose origins as well as intentions are constantly placed into question. And, then there is Celeste, a Destroyer born at the very end of Mayan prosperity. All four Destroyers had been on a quest to locate Kitara for five hundred years after the tragic loss of Incan children who were sacrificed to one of the many blood thirsty gods. It was not until here in the present day that they were able to reunite with their beloved god slayer; and they finally learn that Jose was the key to Isis’ plans and that the supernatural community is severely divided.

Isis had awakened from her tomb thirty years before Kitara was found and in those thirty years she managed to fool mankind by posing as a singer by the name of Jewel and launching herself into superstardom. Her consort was a rapper who called himself Young Ra, whose own ambitions would lead him into serious trouble. Lilith, Adam’s first wife and now the mother of all demons had been posing as Isis’ maidservant while working on her own schemes. It was not until after an almost lethal confrontation between the two entities that Isis realized that Lilith was her enemy and proceeded to accelerate her plans of raising Osiris and harnessing the energies of Atlantis to gain full control over the supernatural and human communities. Isis and Osiris were the only gods who were aware of the existence of the last Atlantean pyramid, but she needed assistance from the full company of the gods to complete her plans. After quite a bit of deception she leads just about every single remaining god left that had not been beheaded by Oblivion into an all-out assault on Kitara and her team, bringing to light the age old battle between good and evil that usually played out behind the scenes of humanity.

As the story concludes, Isis ends up capturing Jose and fulfilling her purpose of raising Osiris whose spirit had been trapped in his own Osirian realms; Syrene had been captured and trapped by Young Ra using Osiris’ ring in an attempt to work out a deal with a death demon; and so it then becomes up to Kitara, Sage and Naomi to save Jose and the rest of humanity from Armageddon’s premature arrival through the reintroduction of Osiris’s return.

At the end, Kitara kills Isis, and Osiris is back but only to return to not being able to be at his wife’s side and thirsting for revenge. Jose is given a new life; not as a Destroyer but simply a young man with a new lease on life. Syrene is still trapped in the Osirian realms and there is a new enemy that has not been on the scene for centuries: Kalima, the Fallen Destroyer. The Destroyers must figure out a way to defeat Osiris while at the same time deal with one who was once one of their own as well as come to terms with their own individual issues which will all be discussed in book two.

* This is the actual synopsis for my second completed manuscript that I am currently shopping around to agencies and publishers. There is no where else to go but up from here. I just wish that the publishing community would embrace the “There is something for everyone” concept instead of constantly searching for the next Twilight, Hunger Games and Harry Potter stories.*

Sometimes it’s all in Your Head

I gotta get out of my head. That self doubt, that little voice that tells me “no, they won’t like that” or “no, you gotta change that” has kept me locked in this prison of the unaccomplished… I am a writer. I felt its pull in my elementary school years- 5th grade to be exact when we were asked to write a short play and then act it out in front of the class. The only thing I remember is the scene wherein I wrote “well, you stole my boyfriend with your sexy perfume!” And, once my partner/BFF Priscilla acted it out the class (including my teacher/arch nemesis Ms. Steeg ) roared with laughter. So, for me to finally step into the arena and put more focus on my dream, it is a tad overwhelming to see that I am not the only one with a story…with this same desire to see my work come together in printed form and reach the hearts and minds of many…to give a little of that part of oneself that has remained hidden from everyone other than God. I know, I am rambling. But sometimes it’s all in my head.